its an emo nite

grrrr..... why can't i do better than this??? what am i lacking???? i feel that something is missing..all this effort....with both sweat and blood... whats the use...grrrrr...... getting a bit crossed for the moment... grrrrr *&(#&(&@#$^@#&$^(*#%&.... feel like chopping something, or at least whacking something... grrrr.... can't even beat total bastard in class... damn sia sui man... OMG..... what the heck is wrong with me??? where're my brains??? the 1 thats with me 2 years ago... where izit.... where??? WHERE!?!?!?!?!/ goddammit... wat the heck man.... shit lar..and exam is juz around the corner.... wat to do leh... damn ler.... damn damn damn damn.... looks like...1 solution... no more CC-ing for me.. until exams are over... but thats not enuf... i don have the motivation to succeed anymore???? wat about entering my dream university??? owning huge cars??? owning submarines??? jets??? NOOOOOOOOOO~ its all soooo blur now.... out of reach... i feel soo disconected... why??? where izit??? the motivation??? feel really really demoralised at the moment.... grrrrr.... and demotivated... T_T ...