dono why.. all of a sudden, this kinda weird feeling is rising over me like a tide... so, i'll name it TheRisingTide... haiz... flip through the adelaide booklet again (can't find my adelaide accomodation booklet!!! grrr~).. and suddenly, like what i've said earlier, there's this feeling that's rising over me, casting dark shadow over the grounds, with an eerie glow around it, (7th month had juz past) threatening to engulf everything that's in its path... and its path.. is my future... darn... i hate making difficult decisions... getting more n more emo (thanx to all d emo songs in my playlist... stupid media player kept jumping to all those songs)... gosh~
decision I
leave for australia and don't turn back... though i get to come back once every year(i'll choose winter), but, have to leave again after the hols... god~ and wats more, going over, means leaving everything behind, including my beloved...~... computer, my bed, jimuiz, hengdaiz, particularly shinyee,puiee,siwei,kurt,xinyi,shuen, jojo and of coz, yoke fun... (mostly my correspondent of my smses and msn) .. and the reason why people enter colleges, is to socialise... and now... the after effect of socialising... lotsa frenz... but.. gonna leave them.. wats d point leh~ and wats more.. gonna waste abour half a million over there... but, i can get that ammount back in 5 years... no prob... well, that's the good thing of going over there => high pay... and to kick start my dreamz.. 100 things to do before i die...
decision II
stay here and continue to slug in the standstill pace of the malaysian community (no offence)... stay here, get to go out wif frenz... but, being the victim of malaysia style of education system... yeah.. juz what i need to end my dreams... though i wont earn big bucks here, but, at least, i'm most happee where i am ~ memoriez flowing almost everywhere... memoriez of all 18 years... but muz miss out the chance of kangaroo watching, shark-eat-people observing, penguin baiting, koala hugging.... haiz..
donolar donolar... don't ask me anything and i won't answer anyting.. HOU FAN ARRRR!!!! its between money+future+dreamz vs frenz+family... haiz... sumthing like what shuen said a while (few weeks) ago... damn~ WATTAGUAN!!! (from somewhere deep in my brain... can hear shinyee's voice saying "nei dou so so dei ge" and jinn's voice "zut nei arrr").. =.= gosh... going crazy.. thanx to the influence of the full moon .:: fact of the day:its still a cresent moon out there ::.
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