3 a.m~

its now 3 am... early in the morning... or smack dead at nite.. either 1 of it~ seriously (wrote this post on a test pad last nite).. i'm kinda impressed with myself .. wu~ feeling tired and all drowzy, but still can't seem too doze off into merryland. haih~ hou fan arr~ wonder how am i gonna work, let alone walk, in the morning. there're lotsa stuff running in and out of my tiny brains right now (feeling like a processor, with millions of data in binary form running through them) akin to blood running through my veins. for the first time, after a loooooooong time, the inquisitive side of me is getting the better of me. what really happen leh? hmmmmmm~ there're thousands of possibilities... and they're all coursing through me leacing the slightest trace. why am I being left in the dark? dim gai?? ermmm.. i can answer that myself thnx ^^ it all comes down to.. nothing but trust.. oh yes... its okie => i don mind... coz its all over now.. everything... all we've got to do, is to start from scratch... i doubt there'll be anything left to leave any scratches on.. the feeling of hopelessness, not withstanding, is making its way into every marrow in me (gosh~ are there any dementors in my room?? expecto patronum!! ~ swt~ told u i'm really blur) haih~ hou fan arrr.. a part of me juz wanted to know more, fix whatever thats not right, and go off smiling.. while the other part of me, juz wanna leave everything as it is, sit back, and let the 'boat allign itself against the jetty', and leave as an empty shell (nothing to be missed). haih~ hou fan arrr~nyway.. since i've got nothing to do, i've translated this song.. wuu.. by BY2

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not cook enough

i think i'm not cook enough,

can't seem to meet your expectations,

i seriously din think too much,

only thinking about, ur departure,

leaving, izit hard?

could it be, that when u're gone and everything will be fine?

lied and said not pain, lie that it doesnt hurt at all,

forced myself to raise my head, don't let tears flow downwards

lied and said not pain, lie that it doesnt hurt at all,

really not sad... only wanna smile and wave...

if one day, we've got the fate to meet again...

will you remember the 'forever' that u've once said??