its an emo nite

grrrr..... why can't i do better than this??? what am i lacking???? i feel that something is missing..all this effort....with both sweat and blood... whats the use...grrrrr...... getting a bit crossed for the moment... grrrrr *&(#&(&@#$^@#&$^(*#%&.... feel like chopping something, or at least whacking something... grrrr.... can't even beat total bastard in class... damn sia sui man... OMG..... what the heck is wrong with me??? where're my brains??? the 1 thats with me 2 years ago... where izit.... where??? WHERE!?!?!?!?!/ goddammit... wat the heck man.... shit lar..and exam is juz around the corner.... wat to do leh... damn ler.... damn damn damn damn.... looks like...1 solution... no more CC-ing for me.. until exams are over... but thats not enuf... i don have the motivation to succeed anymore???? wat about entering my dream university??? owning huge cars??? owning submarines??? jets??? NOOOOOOOOOO~ its all soooo blur now.... out of reach... i feel soo disconected... why??? where izit??? the motivation??? feel really really demoralised at the moment.... grrrrr.... and demotivated... T_T ...

what a day part.10

lets see,nothing much in the morning besides weiwei coming earlier than HIM.. yes yes yes oh yes... then ermmm.... nothing much lor..juz like ordinary days... boring~then, planning to straight away go library when it opens to get my fengshui place..but hor..max hor.. brought a bloody laptop!!! omg~ armed with counter strike.. >.< size="5">THE FORCE... hmmm.... after some bagua-ing found out that its in pyramid... watching Prince Caspian or sumthing... woo~ exam still got time to go cinema-ing (look who's talking)

then hor, during lunch, on the way out, met Mr Yong a.k.a Yao Gor outside library, then go join into his conversation wif Hau Gor for ahile... and on the way for lunch, saw the group of them at the photocopy shop... when he was departing heard something like " tell the couple Happy Wateva lar from Mr Yong" hmmmm~ that took some time to register in me and bang...its the FORCE!!! woo.. wonder how he knew about it... scary man... dono where he get all those information..or does he really notice that all this while?? OMG... at least he's being observant.unlike the other lecturers who're blur blur like sotong... then after that, went CC-ing... =( got my 12 kill streak in COD again.. thnx to mr Sniper..

then went back to college, on the way pit stop to watch Thomas Cup a bit... woo... ChongWei beat Lindan..wow... but malaysia lost 2-3 to china anyway... thnx to hafiz... then mai go study lor... seriously lar... i hate studying lar.. hate those books... then mai go study a bit, then notice its too hot, 23 celcius man... its a bit hot for a library u know..so leh,mai migrate down lor... along with sengseng and jinnjinn to a much colder environment... looked soo innocent and that kinda of deep concentration in her notes... woo.. but max kept disturbing... kesian her a bit lar...

then later, on the way to the "little boys' room" ( a word i found in that weird book.. sumthing call euphamisms or sumthing ) knock into the FORCE head-on... then went toileting lor... saw X walking into the toilet while me walking out the other door rit beside while F/X is waiting outside the library.. then mai went down lor...then,have this feeling.... Force, is coming... OMG... so leh,attempted to hide myself by throwing a jacket over me... (praying that they juz walk by ) then... "poke""poke" looked up... OMG... F/K ... okielor... let ppl fa xian ler... haiz... i suck in hiding anyway... then they mai sit down lor...talk talk a bit.... me study study a bit... and its a bit cold there.. >.< so leh, after while, Hau Gor called K, and OMg..he told him that Yao Gor said sumthing... then ket pressuring... fine... if u wanna know the truth, its on ur own consequences... n shyanjen lar... watler, go bocorkan my tempayan... hmmm.. aiyak... i shud've said, "ask me nothing and i shall tell u no lies"... NOOOOOOOOOOOOO~ missed the opportunity again... watler

what a day part.9

lets see, morning, dammit, he's the first 1 to come again..watler, get kicked out from his group of friends then oni come join us?? watler,like he'll succeed in mixing in wif us like that... then hor, get annoyed by him all the way until weiwei came over to drag me go help weiwei mama carry Dragon Fruit (WOW) to her office...and lotsa dragon fruits that type...wow~ and that,save me some annoyance from him..oh yess~n hor, i think he tried sticking to us for the rest of the day... then hor, yesterday, was NeeNee's bday!!! OMG... and i totally forgotten about that!!! OMG... i'm soo screwed~ T.T she won't talk to me for the rest of my life...NOOOOOOOOO~ (oh ya,forgot to intro intro, NeeNee is my childhood fren that's been kinda close to me for kinda a few years ago..lost contact for a few months, oni found her with her hp number changed..wat to do,juz came back from NS ma)

then hor,in the afternoon, lets see, went CC again, but this time isn't on purpose... i donwanna go adi wan u know... since exam is like damn near... but hor,since there're many of them..go oni lar...=P and there..damn emo man..tell u hor, we own them damn a lot in de_dust man... and iceworld as well... but hor, not even 10 rounds, they change map..into aim_map..stupid lar.. the map which i hate most... and in that map..after like wat 20 rounds..call change map..donwan change..wtf man?? i have a funny feeling, K ,the host of this server, is given adn 'absolute command' by X who i garanty will be sitting rit next to him not to change map...grrrr... but this time,henna is here as well..OMG... can't imagine a cute innocent gurl like her start killing other people... okielar,she killed me once..by surprise..yeah~ and hor,because of that,emo for 1 hour...Oo

Then later in student centre,Dog came wif chihuahua, Oo... first time hear her talk u know..wow...but ehr voice is not that i expected anyway, i would have expected sumthing more high pitched~ sumthing like... err... err... chihuahua???? yeah~

anyway,saw K holding X's hand today, got a glimpse of it... wat ler..sumore donwan admit..if he ever say her hands are cold..in FOYER??? again... yeahrit... like i'm gonna believe...

what a day part.8

holiday again,yet in college... but today, at least there're more people..even mengshuen is here..yeah~ and hor,there's class at 11.30 sumore leh... haiz... hmmm~ today hor, we're sitting at separate tables in the foyer(as usual) till the econs people went up for class wif bigbird(saw his hair sprouting from his ears today..seriously...its dammn dammn long man..longer than siwei's bulu ketiak) and leaving shuen with emofrek+wintermelon and X&wei... and the other table which consist of me,JT,shin n Ee and richard gor came a little while later... then mai call her over lor... at first donwan to come over wan, but, as usual, manage to persuade her by offering to help her transfer her stuff over.. yeah =p but seriously lar, X looked soo dead without K leh.. look soo kesian...lifeless like a walking corpse a.k.a zombie a.k.a X without K...haiz..donolar..

then in class, last class with mr yong... kinda bored as usual, nothing have changed... then hor,during the 10 minutes break, gossiped a lot...yeah~ lotsa stuff lar... and talk talk talkuntil mr yong came back from lunch..oh yeah, before i forgot, that stupid emofreak.. always simply sitting at other people's place..damn lar..last time sat at my place forcing me to go sit with total-bastard, and now, wth, sitting at bear's place??? really stupid ma.. stupid insensitive crappy full of bullshit emo freak...and he had already touched some nerve of mine.. like what he did this morning... stupid man... talking to him make me feel soo geram and..grrrr... and one thing about him, besides being insensitive and not knowing when to be a bit more sensitive, he won't know if he had touched some nerves and go on as though his joke is very funny like that...stupid rit?? big ass-ed monkey...

anyway,went CC-ing wif richard (first time) and i release lotsa water so that he could kill me like piece of cake...okielar,i admit,he's kinda geng...kinda oni arrr... and see lar, i'll kepit his gf out one day..yeah...

what a day part.7

today is a damn damn loooooooooong day man... first,arrived at college earlier than every single student today... OMG... and extra early that type... then hor, the first 1 to come after me...TUCKSENG!!! OMG!!! then start to annoy me..damn lar.... and with complex numbers in front of me... its not a good combination sumore... later,siwei came, and went pingpong for a while before going to white... surprisingly,k&X came shortly afterwards..nothing special..oni that, she came earlier that her sis who's supposedly have class? wow,that's sumthing though..

then in the afternoon,after a day's hardwork, finished complex numbers finally, went CC-ing..then..ermmm... wat happen adi arrr??? i oni remembered being pawn over and over again... by everyone lar... haiz..how could this happen to me... then went back library-ing.. here, K&X again,sat as usual... and this time, caught K&X kinda holding hands but K said"her hands are cold" ermm...fine by me.. but hor... shudn't both of her hands be cold at the sme time?? i haven seen anyone who's hands are each at different temperature... then hor, before i forgot, before lunch-ing,at one of our usual pitstop, notice K's hand knocking(banging) into X's hand... grrr.... this kid..if wanna grab,juz grab lar.. no nid bang here bang there...=.= and of coz, some few attempts of hugging (which eventually failed to take off for some reasons) haiz.. sad lar... inexperience teenagers...

anyway, saw meisan a.k.a the gurl genius (sumwhere around God's level)... she's smart clever and everything, and oso kinda pretty >.< but for once, i've noticed for some time, she's always alone..i wonder what happen to all her classmates?? hmmm... she may have all the brains in the world, but, she's lonely..wat's the use leh??? u tell me u tell me... while me, i have frens, but definitely not brains.... which i much more prefer... peace -.-v

what a day part.6

monday...blues..as usual, Man-U got the Cup!!!1 wat i care... today, is the new form 6's first day of school... oh yes~ its about time they go back to school anyway, since they've been enjoying life after spm for so darn long... and today, of all days... 3 damn freaking hours u know!!! and its mr rajah we're talking about... for 3 hours, sat there like a dungu, staring at the same page for 3 hours..lucky got breaks in between..orelse~ haiz

then after that,went lunching with only the 5 of us (me,siwei,max,jay,seng) and the rest,have no idea where are they add along the econs class..wanted to call X along,but, doncare lar..got K adi ma.. then,went there,ate zhap fan a.k.a economy rice ( rice that goes along with the country's economy i.e economy downturn=price increase) and of coz,the same stall that charge me 7 bucks for zhap fan last time... =.=then went back college,saw X sitting alone there..soo kesian u know..look soo dead~ ooooooh~ then ajak her to library...coz hor, how oso still fren wert, donwan leave her alone ler~ not so kejam yet...

then,in library, she was trying to sleep (fainted) for wateva reason..then SW came up with a brilliant idea.. "i feel like going CC" not bad rit... fine wif me.. waited a long long time before the econs ppl come out... then we're off!!! along wif shyanjen...and for some reason,SW got stuck there for 2 hours!!! wooo .. coz hot, dono y, that lady was trying to persuade him to play 1 extra hour...=.= kesiajn nyer..thats for not having Nina around...

went back library, saw K&X huddled in 1 corner, doing their 'stuff' as usual... then bang here bang there, poke here poke there, hug here hug there... OMG... soo ngan yuen man... even wif Xjr around?? come on..she's not even 18,so leh, don do in front of her ler..look soo innocent...

what a day part.5

today..kinda pathetic day...expected myself to be studying for the whole day since there's no class at all..and for 1 thing.. why am I in college at all??? stupidlar... then hor, sitting in the foyer today,studying..(ermmm....kinda blank out once in a while) then there comes everyone...and of coz, constantly resisting some "forces" to go breakfast and foos... but the thing about foos.. grrrr~ can't resist..darn..and now, my vow will be : no foosing for the entire week!!!...

then, there come xinyi.... then study study study with mengshuen and xinyi and wenchi and errr...not sure whoelse... wait a sec, before wenchi arrive, bear was there~ woo... (the others have chemistry practical) and while me, who wanna go get answers from Ms Kala ( chem lecturer) feeling that leaving mengshuen behind wif them is a bit..errrr..ungrateful..after all, shuen is like an older sister to me...then,there comes wenchi... then there i go, down to the chem lab to see all of them suffer through the entire experiment... and copying answers, is a really boring thing...

after that, all of them wanna go foos again... (all=yunhsi+siwei+max+ some others) and again,leaving shuen there alone? no way... then okielor,when everyone settle down, me... din foos...(so far so good) . went IDP later, bout 12 to that edu fair... hmmm..kinda small as well. and there're many uni reps... and hor..bump into my Eldest Cousin there... OMG..wats he doin there!! shudn't he be in KL IDP?? NOOOOOOOOO~ anywayz, kinda kena lecture a bit, then went around... talked to some reps without understanding anything..@.@ seriously.. with their thick australian accent...@.@ then went lunch-ing with shin,puiEe,chi and jinn at little taiwan..(and for those who haven been there before, don't even think of goin there).. ate something called chicken chop noodle ( the chicken chop is separated from the noodle) and its kinda sucky, but for some reasons, there's that thumbs-up symbol beside it... all the way throughout lunch, trying not to laugh(hello, its shinyee and jinn i'm having lunch with) and not to vomit out my food, is a hard thing to do...after that, went back to college and have to decline shin's offer to drop me back at college (sorilar shin, i really in an emergency leh, tahaning my small business) and wif that stupid taxi driver... trying to start a conversation wif me??? purleaseeeeeeee... i haven forfeit the title of mr Cool...

then later,foosing wif bear... OMG..can't stop sms-ing..reminds me of last time... when i was...haiz... don talk about that lar.. sad diok liao lar....haiz...anywayz, i'll seriously freaking be college the entire week?!!? omg..wat a boring life...