Demise of a star

This post is dedicated to a friend of mine, who recently perish in a car crash along Dukes Highway, South Australia, allegedly on her way to Victoria. A person, who I deem one of the shining star of the future, a potential player in the industry, a person with untainted future as bright as the nearest nova. A person who’s potential cure to cancer is locked in i dare say.

Carmen Loo, aged 22, was involved in a head-on car crash with an oncoming lorry at 3am in the morning on Good Friday along a male friend William. What were they doing out there in the middle of the night? well nobody knows.

But all I can say is, dear Carmen Loo, you are one of the sweetest person I’ve ever met. Though we never talk much (most conversation dominated by Lenny :P). But the occasionally bumping into you at odd corners of the university ground is enough to reveal much about you. Never once I’ve seen you without a smile on your face. A confident shiny smile, which is worthy to be called a trademark of yours, is so contagious it never failed to put a smile on my face (even if its for a couple of second), even after a rough morning.

Sometimes, I felt that it is fate that I walked into you on the Wednesday before the incident after a long hiatus. It could be a pre-arranged meeting organized by heaven itselves, the final encounter, if you may. Well, as cheerful as you could be, the energetic wave and smile in the morning :) . With a clear bright future ahead of you, getting into a course that you’ve had so much passion for (Dentistry), after a 3 years stint in Science, who would’ve thought that all those dreams, hopes, and expectations, will end so abruptly. Nobody deserves to meet an end like this, especially not you!!. Its like what many of your friends say, the persons who deserve to meet their ends, is still alive and kicking, whereas bright and energetic individuals such as yourself and William, met a dreadful end.

Admittedly, on Saturday morning, before getting the news, it was a part of my plans to get you roped in into the “Lenny 21st birthday bash” team. Its just that, you’re one of the few individuals that Lenny has ever been close with. From the time where you’re regarded as the “hello girl” saying hello whenever you girls meet, till the days where you catch a movie together, head out for dinner after handing in assignments, and even launching some guerilla birthday celebrations.

Anyway, if God brought you back to His side, that would only mean that God’s lending period is over and that He needs one of his Angels back (short of wo-man power up there I suppose). Well, how did you even slipped off one of the clouds and fall down to earth, that’s a mystery by itself :) . And now, I shall say no more, be prepared for your next journey, the next designated mission.

 

p/s : I do know that you dropped by this afternoon while Lenny was by herself :) Thanks for dropping by for the last goodbye. You may not be here, but nonetheless, will not be forgotten by your peers. Thanks for the adventure, and goodbye :) Godbless.

pp/s : So I guess I can’t look forward to walking into you in your laboratory coat along Frome Street anymore can I? Please do send some dreams over ya ^^  

 

(picture taken from Carmen’s facebook page)

Carmen Loo (1990-2013)

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Pictures of our latest hangout session!! And i remain the shortest of all… pfft~ minus Lenny of course ^^ *Notice the Minnie Mouse being obscured by Max*

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Anyway, now that my Bachelor’s Degree is done and dusted, although with a not-so-awesome result, but am grateful nevertheless with my second class honors. Was really close to getting first class though, just 6 additional points in every exam for the every semesters. well you see kids, never neglect in completing your assignments as those little points trickling in matters in deciding what sort of degree that you will be graduating in.

So I have graduated… now what? Do I really dare call myself an engineer? Not quite there yet… Technically, you could address me as an engineer (with a degree), but you see, I don’t see myself solving everyday human woes, building bridges, rockets, planes, let alone a bicycle. You see, the situation that I am currently in, is no difference than an SPM leaver who has many split roads ahead of him/her. The decision to go on studying, set foot into the work force, or even taking a long break before eventually having to make any decisions, well, will eventually go back to making decisions. Making a wrong move, and your whole life goes down the drain and being washed away into the monsoon drain of hopelessness (unless of course, there being a thunderstorm and a flashflood causing water to backflow back into the drain)

And you see, my current human value is that of –RM 145K… Leased to me for my undergraduate studies by the government. Good ‘ol government, don’t know what I’m gonna do without them. I’m so worthless that even when I’m kidnapped by terrorists organisations that they’ll have to pay me RM145K for kidnapping me =.= its that sad eh… So yeah, made a decision to work or study or do anything that could raise enough numus to erase my dept before living my real life :3

But you see, all these talk and no action is currently hanging in balance while awaiting for my Australian Permanent Residence Visa result :/ Without my PR, which belongs rightfully to me, I’m nothing more than an illegal immigrant which can’t do anything. Nobody will look to hiring a non resident, nor can I do anything else. My head of engineering school has wonderfully extended his helping by offering me a grant to continue with PostGraduate studies in Adelaide, but without the Australian PR decision, I can’t really go far whats with depleting survival funds >.<

so yeah~ ohhh PR come to me quick~~~ I’ve been waiting for you day and night~ checking email every 2 hours, praying every 5 minutes, consistently for the past 1 week T.T despo~

So yeah, have been home for 1 month+, shall be heading back there next tuesday, all the while hoping that they still allow me back into the country~ hope they don’t deport me T.T Cause that’s gonna be sad… It’s gonna be an uphill battle once I’m back ^^

Stressful Week

"my past self will never betray my future self" ... Is something I've read somewhere... Could be from some manga.., dunno n.n nyway, not in my case... I've just starting to realize how many bad decisions that I have done in the past, which of course lead to many bad experience and unnecessary stresses, and of course, which leads to... Hmmm lost of hair, weight gain, lost of temper etc.  I could say that bad decisions are littered throughout the years I've been walking this earth. 

Stress is not something I can't handle, on normal occasions. Academic stress is something that I can cope, which is something that I've been brought up with . There's nothing that cannot be done... Well, except for my final year project >.< honestly ... A submarine that can fly? Which dummy will choose such project? See bad decisions... A teammate of mine once asked "would you do this project again if you're given a chance to choose over again , or would yu not do it at all" 

Well it's not to say that it's crappy or so... But yeah... Having a sucky team... Which generally consist of

#1 Project manager who thinks that he's really important and that the team can't do without him...  

#2 A genius jack of all trade who keeps knowledge to himself

#3 Another genius introvert with sudden emotional explosion

#4 Another self righteous dummy who thinks that he knows how to write a 'proper' report/presentation

#5 A graphics pro... Who really turn out to be some slacker... Leaving all his work to the last minute and complain about how stressful work is

#6 Someone who tries too hard to do everything that the rest (not including me) did not bother to pick up

#7 someone who works too hard to support his life and turn up for meeting all groggy and weird

#8 last but not least, me who tries too hard to juggle life and separating academic and project life.

sigh... How bad can it go right? Well, be prepared to be surprised,I've got another presentation up this Tuesday ...if anything would go wrong, this will ^^ and plus... I really do need some quality sleeps... Have been sleeping late for the entire week.... Don't know how long I'm gonna last... And no, I'm not on energy drinks... Surprised? :D 

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Woot woot~ testing testing 123

8036th day

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Today marks the 8036th day of me being alive, just a month~ish after my 8000th day being alive. it might not sound really significant, but it marks a pretty important milestones in my life.

well guess what, I’m 22!!! holy crap can you believe it?!?!?! Its pretty incredible isnt it?? the journey call life has brought me through thick and thin, different pits, high and low, bitter and sweet… everything… and most importantly, it has showed me the different faces of life and also different people who would play a role (important or not, positive or negative, is another matter) in my life. Like what that little kid in ‘Touch’ once said “every person on earth is connected in one way or the other”.

SO yeah, throughout these 8036 days, I’ve met douchebags, assholes, nice peoples, pushovers, really nice peoples, bastards, really really nice peoples and etc. Well can’t complain =D

I’m really lucky to have met at least a group of outstanding individuals at every stage of my life ever since my primary educations. Well, they might not be very outstanding anymore, but still, they deserve credits.

College Dayz

College marks one of the biggest milestone in my life… my first stepping stone to getting out into the world. The place where I first met a bunch of awesome people… So awesome its blinding… like a solar beam… from Venusaur, after charging for an entire month…

so yeah =D thanks for giving me an awesome 2 years people ^^

Next stage in life : the university life

and of course, people who are constantly by my sides =D. thanks for accompanying me for the past four years. ^^

And now, another cross road. honestly speaking, I have no idea where will I be in 6 months time, will I be studying still? (further education lar, not repeating my final year >.<), or will I be out in the work force with all the big boys? hmmmm… hard to tell, since 80% of my college mates are already out in the workforce… and I’m one of the last ones studying =( meh~

last but not least, thanks to my parents who brought me out into this world and supporting me for the past 22 years. My mommy especially for carrying me for 10 months, 10 hours of labour, 10 minutes of pushing me out… i know its not easy, its like trying to force a bowl into a tomato sauce bottle…

last but not least, thanks to my little sister who made my burfday card … know its not creative, but oh well, one can’t have everything =D i mean… upmh… its not that you’re not creative, just that… I’m much more creative!! muahahaha~ i’m such a bad brother >.<

nywayz, gotta get back to studiez… 2 more exams. to go…

p/s : the previous paper is pretty much a let down… just hoping to pass my paper… sigh… looks like anything related to outer space doesn’t agree with me >.< pressure is on… I just wanna hold on to my division A of 2nd class … sigh…

Happy mom’s day

Happee mama’s day mommy. thanks for bringing me up for 22 years <3

first hi-tea in a few years >.<

Random Pic of the Day

Lenn’s bird nest ring =D interesting eh? see the bird?? ^^

Song of the Moment

带我回去-Zchen

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yu know what’s cool? this is!! =D

Quote of the Day

Not an hour goes by where I don’t think of you… -me

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so yeah… went for a hi tea session with the family yesterday in PJ Hilton… haven’t been there like for ages… 2 years? maybe~ nywayz, pics below ^^

some desserts on display =D

round 1

round 2

dad’s plate

my dessert platter =D

and woot!! mango pudding/custard/jelly… have no idea which and nobody bothered to label them >.< meh~ it was decorated so nicely that at first look , almost anybody will think that they’re just mere wax decorations for the other dishes =D turned out it was edible =D

see that bulb? its actually cherry tomato? with its leaves attached to it… no idea cherry tomatoes are actually soo cute ^^ really… good job to the person who thought of this… deserve some applause… and of course, a pay rise!!

some decos of the place… hmmm~ don’t know when will I get to come here again =) I don’t know…