NewYear(2014) Rezo~

Without realizing, it's been almost a year since I've first started my phd in Adelaide uni. Time sure flies huh ^^ so much happened over the course of a year. It seems just like yesterday that Maziar(final year project supervisor) told me urgently to give a call to the head of school... And before long, officially starting my phd program... And shortly after, receive my Australian PR.... To be followed by my graduation...

Well, as expected, not all is cool and dandy. Many things could go wrong in almost every turn of life, human-human interactions, human-scum interactions, human-aunties interactions, etc >.< 

There're always conflicts given the natural human behavioral (maybe only applicable to me) I.e human-human conflict, human-supervisor conflict, human-people's mom conflict... Well,  yu name it :D well, doesn't really have a very good first impression on one of my supervisors in the beginning. Well you would be if they leave you alone in a cold damp room for 4 months with minimum instructions. Well I guess the feeling is mutual. Guess the turning point came when I single handedly solved tonnes of problem without their help ahahahahahahaha~ am just that awesome (self praise). Well, guess they're sincerely trying to mould me into someone big (not indispensable but irreplaceable <<< his own words ^^). So yeah.. 2013, a year it all begun... And you think that's big, you're wrong, the big ones start now :D officiating my climb to bigger glory~

So yeah, new years resolution... Hmmm... How am I gonna achieve all these...

>grow more hair!! ( super important)

>get pax

>get more munneh!! (munneh makes the world go round)

>stop several bad habits

>do more charity 

>better financial+paper management 

>travel more!! <<< very important 

And now, what's left is the execution... Let 2014 begin!!!

Demise of a star

This post is dedicated to a friend of mine, who recently perish in a car crash along Dukes Highway, South Australia, allegedly on her way to Victoria. A person, who I deem one of the shining star of the future, a potential player in the industry, a person with untainted future as bright as the nearest nova. A person who’s potential cure to cancer is locked in i dare say.

Carmen Loo, aged 22, was involved in a head-on car crash with an oncoming lorry at 3am in the morning on Good Friday along a male friend William. What were they doing out there in the middle of the night? well nobody knows.

But all I can say is, dear Carmen Loo, you are one of the sweetest person I’ve ever met. Though we never talk much (most conversation dominated by Lenny :P). But the occasionally bumping into you at odd corners of the university ground is enough to reveal much about you. Never once I’ve seen you without a smile on your face. A confident shiny smile, which is worthy to be called a trademark of yours, is so contagious it never failed to put a smile on my face (even if its for a couple of second), even after a rough morning.

Sometimes, I felt that it is fate that I walked into you on the Wednesday before the incident after a long hiatus. It could be a pre-arranged meeting organized by heaven itselves, the final encounter, if you may. Well, as cheerful as you could be, the energetic wave and smile in the morning :) . With a clear bright future ahead of you, getting into a course that you’ve had so much passion for (Dentistry), after a 3 years stint in Science, who would’ve thought that all those dreams, hopes, and expectations, will end so abruptly. Nobody deserves to meet an end like this, especially not you!!. Its like what many of your friends say, the persons who deserve to meet their ends, is still alive and kicking, whereas bright and energetic individuals such as yourself and William, met a dreadful end.

Admittedly, on Saturday morning, before getting the news, it was a part of my plans to get you roped in into the “Lenny 21st birthday bash” team. Its just that, you’re one of the few individuals that Lenny has ever been close with. From the time where you’re regarded as the “hello girl” saying hello whenever you girls meet, till the days where you catch a movie together, head out for dinner after handing in assignments, and even launching some guerilla birthday celebrations.

Anyway, if God brought you back to His side, that would only mean that God’s lending period is over and that He needs one of his Angels back (short of wo-man power up there I suppose). Well, how did you even slipped off one of the clouds and fall down to earth, that’s a mystery by itself :) . And now, I shall say no more, be prepared for your next journey, the next designated mission.

 

p/s : I do know that you dropped by this afternoon while Lenny was by herself :) Thanks for dropping by for the last goodbye. You may not be here, but nonetheless, will not be forgotten by your peers. Thanks for the adventure, and goodbye :) Godbless.

pp/s : So I guess I can’t look forward to walking into you in your laboratory coat along Frome Street anymore can I? Please do send some dreams over ya ^^  

 

(picture taken from Carmen’s facebook page)

Carmen Loo (1990-2013)

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Most Recent Hangout Pics!

Pictures of our latest hangout session!! And i remain the shortest of all… pfft~ minus Lenny of course ^^ *Notice the Minnie Mouse being obscured by Max*

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Anyway, now that my Bachelor’s Degree is done and dusted, although with a not-so-awesome result, but am grateful nevertheless with my second class honors. Was really close to getting first class though, just 6 additional points in every exam for the every semesters. well you see kids, never neglect in completing your assignments as those little points trickling in matters in deciding what sort of degree that you will be graduating in.

So I have graduated… now what? Do I really dare call myself an engineer? Not quite there yet… Technically, you could address me as an engineer (with a degree), but you see, I don’t see myself solving everyday human woes, building bridges, rockets, planes, let alone a bicycle. You see, the situation that I am currently in, is no difference than an SPM leaver who has many split roads ahead of him/her. The decision to go on studying, set foot into the work force, or even taking a long break before eventually having to make any decisions, well, will eventually go back to making decisions. Making a wrong move, and your whole life goes down the drain and being washed away into the monsoon drain of hopelessness (unless of course, there being a thunderstorm and a flashflood causing water to backflow back into the drain)

And you see, my current human value is that of –RM 145K… Leased to me for my undergraduate studies by the government. Good ‘ol government, don’t know what I’m gonna do without them. I’m so worthless that even when I’m kidnapped by terrorists organisations that they’ll have to pay me RM145K for kidnapping me =.= its that sad eh… So yeah, made a decision to work or study or do anything that could raise enough numus to erase my dept before living my real life :3

But you see, all these talk and no action is currently hanging in balance while awaiting for my Australian Permanent Residence Visa result :/ Without my PR, which belongs rightfully to me, I’m nothing more than an illegal immigrant which can’t do anything. Nobody will look to hiring a non resident, nor can I do anything else. My head of engineering school has wonderfully extended his helping by offering me a grant to continue with PostGraduate studies in Adelaide, but without the Australian PR decision, I can’t really go far whats with depleting survival funds >.<

so yeah~ ohhh PR come to me quick~~~ I’ve been waiting for you day and night~ checking email every 2 hours, praying every 5 minutes, consistently for the past 1 week T.T despo~

So yeah, have been home for 1 month+, shall be heading back there next tuesday, all the while hoping that they still allow me back into the country~ hope they don’t deport me T.T Cause that’s gonna be sad… It’s gonna be an uphill battle once I’m back ^^

Stressful Week

"my past self will never betray my future self" ... Is something I've read somewhere... Could be from some manga.., dunno n.n nyway, not in my case... I've just starting to realize how many bad decisions that I have done in the past, which of course lead to many bad experience and unnecessary stresses, and of course, which leads to... Hmmm lost of hair, weight gain, lost of temper etc.  I could say that bad decisions are littered throughout the years I've been walking this earth. 

Stress is not something I can't handle, on normal occasions. Academic stress is something that I can cope, which is something that I've been brought up with . There's nothing that cannot be done... Well, except for my final year project >.< honestly ... A submarine that can fly? Which dummy will choose such project? See bad decisions... A teammate of mine once asked "would you do this project again if you're given a chance to choose over again , or would yu not do it at all" 

Well it's not to say that it's crappy or so... But yeah... Having a sucky team... Which generally consist of

#1 Project manager who thinks that he's really important and that the team can't do without him...  

#2 A genius jack of all trade who keeps knowledge to himself

#3 Another genius introvert with sudden emotional explosion

#4 Another self righteous dummy who thinks that he knows how to write a 'proper' report/presentation

#5 A graphics pro... Who really turn out to be some slacker... Leaving all his work to the last minute and complain about how stressful work is

#6 Someone who tries too hard to do everything that the rest (not including me) did not bother to pick up

#7 someone who works too hard to support his life and turn up for meeting all groggy and weird

#8 last but not least, me who tries too hard to juggle life and separating academic and project life.

sigh... How bad can it go right? Well, be prepared to be surprised,I've got another presentation up this Tuesday ...if anything would go wrong, this will ^^ and plus... I really do need some quality sleeps... Have been sleeping late for the entire week.... Don't know how long I'm gonna last... And no, I'm not on energy drinks... Surprised? :D 

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Woot woot~ testing testing 123

8036th day

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Today marks the 8036th day of me being alive, just a month~ish after my 8000th day being alive. it might not sound really significant, but it marks a pretty important milestones in my life.

well guess what, I’m 22!!! holy crap can you believe it?!?!?! Its pretty incredible isnt it?? the journey call life has brought me through thick and thin, different pits, high and low, bitter and sweet… everything… and most importantly, it has showed me the different faces of life and also different people who would play a role (important or not, positive or negative, is another matter) in my life. Like what that little kid in ‘Touch’ once said “every person on earth is connected in one way or the other”.

SO yeah, throughout these 8036 days, I’ve met douchebags, assholes, nice peoples, pushovers, really nice peoples, bastards, really really nice peoples and etc. Well can’t complain =D

I’m really lucky to have met at least a group of outstanding individuals at every stage of my life ever since my primary educations. Well, they might not be very outstanding anymore, but still, they deserve credits.

College Dayz

College marks one of the biggest milestone in my life… my first stepping stone to getting out into the world. The place where I first met a bunch of awesome people… So awesome its blinding… like a solar beam… from Venusaur, after charging for an entire month…

so yeah =D thanks for giving me an awesome 2 years people ^^

Next stage in life : the university life

and of course, people who are constantly by my sides =D. thanks for accompanying me for the past four years. ^^

And now, another cross road. honestly speaking, I have no idea where will I be in 6 months time, will I be studying still? (further education lar, not repeating my final year >.<), or will I be out in the work force with all the big boys? hmmmm… hard to tell, since 80% of my college mates are already out in the workforce… and I’m one of the last ones studying =( meh~

last but not least, thanks to my parents who brought me out into this world and supporting me for the past 22 years. My mommy especially for carrying me for 10 months, 10 hours of labour, 10 minutes of pushing me out… i know its not easy, its like trying to force a bowl into a tomato sauce bottle…

last but not least, thanks to my little sister who made my burfday card … know its not creative, but oh well, one can’t have everything =D i mean… upmh… its not that you’re not creative, just that… I’m much more creative!! muahahaha~ i’m such a bad brother >.<

nywayz, gotta get back to studiez… 2 more exams. to go…

p/s : the previous paper is pretty much a let down… just hoping to pass my paper… sigh… looks like anything related to outer space doesn’t agree with me >.< pressure is on… I just wanna hold on to my division A of 2nd class … sigh…

Happy mom’s day

Happee mama’s day mommy. thanks for bringing me up for 22 years <3

first hi-tea in a few years >.<

Random Pic of the Day

Lenn’s bird nest ring =D interesting eh? see the bird?? ^^

Song of the Moment

带我回去-Zchen

Video of the Day

yu know what’s cool? this is!! =D

Quote of the Day

Not an hour goes by where I don’t think of you… -me

Post of the Day

so yeah… went for a hi tea session with the family yesterday in PJ Hilton… haven’t been there like for ages… 2 years? maybe~ nywayz, pics below ^^

some desserts on display =D

round 1

round 2

dad’s plate

my dessert platter =D

and woot!! mango pudding/custard/jelly… have no idea which and nobody bothered to label them >.< meh~ it was decorated so nicely that at first look , almost anybody will think that they’re just mere wax decorations for the other dishes =D turned out it was edible =D

see that bulb? its actually cherry tomato? with its leaves attached to it… no idea cherry tomatoes are actually soo cute ^^ really… good job to the person who thought of this… deserve some applause… and of course, a pay rise!!

some decos of the place… hmmm~ don’t know when will I get to come here again =) I don’t know…

me? polite?

Random Pic of the Day

mommy’s home planted small chillies…

Song of the Moment

带我回去-Zchen

Video of the Day

this… is bullshit… not even true…

QUote of the Day

being a good person is like being a goal keeper, no matter how many goals you save; some people will only remember those that you’ve missed

Post of the day

so it was like this, my maid came into my room, looked at me, and told me “you’ve gotten more polite and peaceful this year unlike last year where you were short tempered”…

so yeah, it didn’t strike me that… yeah… I’ve been more polite… all thanks to a special person… somebody that meant a world to me… but… sigh~

its still CNY

Random Pic of the Day

this… is good stuff…

Song of the Moment

ren chuo – athena beh

Video of the Day

Quote of the Day

you, me or nobody is gonna hit as hard as life. but it ain’t about how hard ya hit. it’s about how hard you can get it and keep moving forward

Post of the Day

one wise man once said “if you really like something, let it go, if it comes back to you, its yours”… well… i don’t think this ‘wise man’ has really like anything or anyone before… I don’t know… I’m just too scared to let go, or even lose this… something…

some people believe that, if you fast on something that you like, you’ll get the things that you hope for… and yes, I’m fasting on something that I really like forever… and… I don’t think I’m getting any closer on the thing that i’ve wished for… losing faith… a little …

i don’t know, this is just too hard on me…

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on a totally different note, I went to the movies in 2 consecutive dayz!!! a movie a day =D

went for Viral Factor (18+) yesterday!! with my sister of course (my faithful wayang kaki) who’s 16+… so yeah… kinda sneaked her into the GSC in 1U… the attendant sorta stared at her for a moment… and my heart sorta stopped… but… woot~ we went through ^^ not bad not bad~ movie was good… but… WHY DOES JAY CHOW HAS TO DIE T.T nooooo~ should’ve just killed off Nicholas Tse =D

then today, went for Ah Beng : the 3 wishes… not bad… got funny , got touching, got sad =D but yeah… nice story line ^^ wonder what movie to watch next…

back from taiping

Random Pic of the Day

mommy dog baiting… poor doggy… have to work for food… entertain meeeee

Song of the Moment

会呼吸的痛-Fish leong

seriously…想念 IS 会呼吸的痛… no joke… hurts really bad…

VIdeo of the Day

shit inanimate objects says : i’m a banana~

Quote of the day

never underestimate the pain of someone because the truth is everyone is struggling. its just some people hide it better than the other

Post of the Day

right, its now the official 5th day of lunar calendar! first and foremost… new year resolution… hmmm… lets see… its to… umph… for starter, overcome my alcohol thingy? well, alcohol is man’s worst enemy… and god says “love your enemy”… so… hee~

anyway, was in taiping for 3 days… met some of my baby cousins.. they’re like… crap… how old are they again? hmmm no idea… all i know is, there’re like 2 classes of the next generation there… 1 that speaks english, and the other which speaks no english…

one of my cousies… she’s pretty cute but mischievous… and guess what, she’s got 6 toes on her right foot!!! how cool is that!?!?!

some fruits that can only be found in kampung areas… or are they even fruits?? nah… don’t think I’m gonna live to find out…the green ones are “i-have-no-idea-what-sorta-fruits-are-those” fruits while the tiny purple ones are 落神 flower… dono why izit called that

the hype these dayz are on this flower… allegedly, if its boiled, simmered, and sweetened… it pretty much taste like ribena… which I will hesitate… I WILL!!! hesitate to taste em =.= don’t wanna die from food poisoning… well, curiosity did kill the cat… but he won’t kill me!!! muahaha~

anyway, holiday’s over… time to get back to me *cough* submarine =.= seriously… how did I even end up in this project… how???? rawr…

Lenny I wuv yuuu~

Happee Chinese Lunar New Year

Random Pic of the Day

Deco in Mid Valley

Song of the Moment

天后-刘力扬

Video of the Day

feel like whacking the small kid :D

Quote of the Day

Intelligence never won a war… coz intelligence never start a war

Post of the Day

first and foremost, Happee Chinese Lunar New Year to all chinese in the world!! =D may all of you be showered with prosperous-ness and everything nice ^^ whether you believe it or not~

but honestly, don’t think the Dragon year likes me at all… sigh… i mean its not like I’m involved in any road accidents like my friend Ginny or what… yes, she was heading home when the gearbox of her car broke down… so yeah, stranded on the road… poor thing

just that, in the morning, you know, sometimes you’ll get the feeling of something might happen before it actually happened… you get what I mean? or maybe I’m just over-thinking it? “just worry about stuff when it happens” right. so yeah, was pretty depressed for the whole day… kinda spoiled CNY… wtf…

coming home from daddy’s hometown, Rawang… everyone was pretty much posting up CNY pics of what they’ve done in their respective homes… and i was like… oh well~ and yeah, it was pretty different on my side ^^ nothing extravagant… well, I’m from a pretty simple family :) not that I’m complaining~

anyway, heaps of stuff are coursing through my mind at this moment (perhaps a source of depression that I’ve been suffering). well 2012 marks a lot of things for me :

--> there’s election this year , and I’m eligible to vote, just not voting

--> world’s gonna end at the end of the year

--> my final year as a student…. ever… if thing goes well

--> some uncertaintees in life… too complicated to be explained

--> my 21st year spending Valentine’s alone… and I mean it… aloneeee…and this is bad… I have no idea how many more Valentine’s can i spend with my Valentine before being dragged down with career and family…

and these are the only a fraction of whats been coursing through my mind… annoyinggggggggg!!! and I’m going out of town tomorrow… back to mommy’s hometown

3.30am in da mornin

ahh yes, its 3.30am in the morning =D don’t ask me what I’m doing up early in the morning… I honestly don’t know… in fact I haven’t slept… and neither do I feel like sleeping too^^

and yesh…

holy crap…

INSOMNIA!!!

 

damn… so gonna get screwed by mommy if she walks out of the room now to find me awake and still kicking >.<

3.30am in the morning… when I finally need someone to talk to… to bore me to sleep… guess nobody’s still awake… or i can stay up for a couple more hours in time to greet the Adelaide folks good morning? hmmm… we’ll see =D

and lenny, you’re sound asleep nao too *teehee*

damn… hyper active… and speaking of which I’m having cold sweat… guess this is a pretty bad sign huh ^^hmmm since i’m pretty much awake, might as well take this opportunity to reflect of myself for a bit ^^

really… for year 2011, I’ve actually learnt heaps of lessons that can be used in life…

whatever will happen, will happen don’t worry about things before they happen go nuts once in a while, acceptable its ok for people to back stab you, just be the bigger person friends are important

and heaps more  =D

honestly, most of the time, I’m just up thinking… about things… will my life now be different if I didn’t get myself involved in… you know … nah… maybe not… I’ve never regretted a thing ever since I’ve decided this. My life has actually became more colorful ever since. Its never dull, it gives me a meaning in living, it gives me an aim every morning when I wake up, provides some warmth whenever I’m feeling down, and whats more, it gives me something to look forward for after a loooong day in school =) and it makes me feel more secure thinking that I’m not alone, surrounded by 4 faces of walls (and a tiny hole for window) =)

I can’t thank you enough…for giving me a life ^^

home sweet home?

Random Pic of the Day

Honestly… the new MAS color scheme suck…

Song of the Moment

A Thousand Years- CHristina Perri

Video of the Day

seriously… this… is romantic… =D *faith in humanity restored*

Quote of the Day

There she lusted after her lovers, whose genitals were like those of donkeys and whose emission was like that of horses ezekiel 23:20

Post of the Day

 Really, I’ve been home for almost a week now!! damn, time sure passes real fast ^^ Can’t say how glad I was to be home =D but one thing remain a problem… cultural shock… seriously, I’ve been away for far too long a time to have forgotten all these…

From international news (those that I’ve got access to), they made it seem like Malaysia is a really beautiful country, thus giving the impression that we’re a really clean green and courteous country. but NO!! this isn’t the case. First day off the plane, all that I’ve seen is a hazy sky, barren lands, black smoke bellowed by lorries, run down public transport infrastructures, dirty surroundings…

seriously, if this is how we look like as a developing nation… what makes you think we’ll be any better as a developed country? up till nao, developed country status (as defined by our government) is based solely on GDP and neglecting damages done to the environment… which is baaaaaad… if environment is taken into account in the conferring of the developed status, we’ll be…i don’t know… whatever you called countries that are below third world country?

but it is a fact that, we do have the infrastructure of a first world country, and sadly, mentality of a third world country… don’t believe? what do you call people who just chuck rubbish by the road? not one, but a majority of them. sigh,,, humanity,,,

seasons of hawtzzz

Random Pic of the Day

Happee New Year people =D

Song of the moment

那些年-hu xia

Video of the Day

Quote of the Day

 I always wonder why birds stay in the same place when they can fly anywhere on the earth. Then i ask myself the same question… –Harun Yahya

you’ve got a point there…

Post of the Day

Happee New Year everyone!! woot~ its now officially the year

*~*2012!!*~*

and yes I’m 22 years old!!! Holy sh*t can you believe this? damn… what have I been doing for the past 21 years??? huh?? hmm… lets see… spent 18 years studying, and 3 years running around drawing on walls =D

and yeah, this world, as we know it, is gonna end soon :D well, the Mayan’s predicted it didn’t they? ^^ 21/12/2012… oh noez~

i dare say their predictions are correct… to me… well, from that day onwards, I’m gonna be graduating and joining the work force!! or should I say… adding +1 into the International Jobless Count :(

so yeah… pretty sad eh ^^

nywayz, sad things aside… =D from the few dayz before christmas, up till today… I’ve experienced heaps of new stuff ^^ stuff that I would not have learn if I’ve stayed in Malaysia… they’re kinda right when they say “overseas graduates have much more exposure than local graduates”. *cough* without chronological order…

1)

Sad Egg Tarts!!

for the first time ever that I’ve seen such sad looking egg tarts… honest… the moment I laid my eyez on them… they really do look sad… its like someone took them off the oven, played base ball with it, chuck it onto the floor, got grind over by a car, and last but not least, ended up on our plate … poor thing… RIP eggtarts ^^

2)

Gigantic Burgers

Honestly, when some friends and my housemate went and try out those burgers at Burgers Foundry, they came back telling me how big it was and all I did was brush them aside telling them that they’ve got tiny appetites (seriously, they are all anorexic skinny). But when its finally my turn… holy crap… it IS BIG!!!

there comparison… ever eaten a burger that’s as big as your head? no right >.< really… damn… and not forgetting Burger Theory as well, some nomadic burger van!! … good burp-gers :D

3)

???

well, seriously, I don’t know what they’re called ^^ just remember them from my childhood where I’ll just eat the color bit (icing) and chuck the rest away ^^ and yeah.. they’re really… EXPENSIVE here… its like 3 Dollars for 100g!!! yes that small packet… for the same money 3bucks=10 ringgit, I could’ve gotten like an entire can of that cookie!!! holy crap such a rip offfff!!!

 

4)

Honey Glazed Ham

for christmas!! woot~ my first time messing with such big chunk of ham… really… all that I’ve handled before this was frying the shaved hams =D

5)

Hanging on the beach

under a terribly hawt sun… >.< which is a bad choice >.< and the picture above is the only picture that I find not so revealing ^^ well, in the other pictures, there’s always chicks in bikinis… so yeah ^^ was down on the beach with Lenny,Mell,Eelin and Yinto on a super sunny day… initial plan was to stay on the beach to jaga stuff (me) but in the end got dragged into water >.< ohwell~ had heaps of fun though, and a super terrible sunburn ^^ lurve how euu hang on to me like koala hunneh =D 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

pictures after the gurls were done changing… out of their bikinis *whistles* =D really had a great day (for the eye) minus the bad sunburn ^^

6)

chilling out at the pool

a really good time to start chilling out in the pool in a hawt hawt day… so hawt that it burns ^^ so yeah, in the picture, are people who made my holiday stay here bearable… ^^

 

7)

New Year Fireworks!!!

really, it was SUPERB!!! best fireworks I’ve ever seen!!! holy @(*)(#*@)$#(*&^&#@^$ crap!! >.<it was soooo coollll… and what made it better was watching it with someone you love… really… thanx lenny for watching it with me ^^

 

and next… are some personal conflicts that has everything to do with my future… its my elective selections… in my first Sem I am already dead set on taking Computational Fluid <something>… codenamed CFD… which means… ermmmm, something about air/water flowing over things ^^

and second sem, there’re heaps of stuff that I could take, damn…. was really spoilt for choice. If i could I would really wanna take up acoustics… which is gonna be fun but with a bleak career prospects… so therefore, gonna be choosing fluid mechanics again… which is, again… air/water flowing over things… omgosh… really gonna have aerodynamics influencing my life in the future ~ urgh >.< gonna retire at 40 :D